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  • Yesterday I

    Just yesterday, I was struggling to come up with something to blog about. My Aunt Celia died early this morning.

  • Fall, I Did

    Fall, I did today saw the Inbox, one message from a name of a person who’s no longer a person hasn’t been for years because he’s gone on, on Billy Billy who died of an aneurism or a catastrophic stroke I can’t remember which brain stem is a bad place for a bleed Fell, he…

  • An Overview of Shelves

    I shelved my aunt the same day I was shelved by my lover. Admittedly, her dismissal was more traumatic of the two. Later, when I cried for myself, I cried for her, too. She’s not on my coffee table any more, at least, but she’s hovering. She’s not overbearing about it; my guilt is. Meaning.…

  • Rocks

    I didn’t put her away. I thought I would have. I thought I’d turned a corner. For six weeks, an envelope with pictures of my dead aunt have been on my coffee table, waiting for me to do something with them. I have gotten teary-eyed just seeing the envelope. The last week has been especially…

  • Missing

    The ache is always there but it gets better It becomes bearable It becomes livable She meant the pain she felt for the loss of her son Still her words come back to me Because I remembered her today I remembered when we breathed in the same room Together I remembered her pain and my…

  • Dying Starts Here

    I worry when someone goes into the hospital Kidneys shutting down Liver shutting down We don’t know why may never know whywhywhywhywhy haven’t we had enough of this already once the dying starts, it doesn’t stop Clogged arteries are blocked lifelines legs becoming starved for oxygen good news he has periphery veins and leg pains…

  • Resting Place

    My mother gave me pictures of her and her son both dead We all die sooner or later No one comes into the world thinking she will suffer a lingering, painful death or that he will die of a ruptured ulcer We all die quickly or slowly We all die of trivial things which is…

  • time spent

    bored not hurting anybody scrolling through the numbers in my phone   I saw the name had forgotten the name already was surprised it was there in my phone when she no longer is here  on earth   I pressed delete before I could think too much time spent thinking   how long will it…

  • happen

    I take a break from my guilt A night of fun with my unrequited love He’s unrequited but not really my love I need him for much bigger things Bob Seger’s voice haunts Somewhere tonight someone’s thinking back to someone who got closer   I try hard to concentrate this song is about me this…

  • How to Get On with It for the Love of Jesus

    If you have to use Aspercreme on sore muscles, wash and rewash your hands. Once or twice is not good enough, because should the icy-hot fire somehow get around your what-not area, it will burn for hours and you will be miserable. If you haven’t already done so, just get on with it. Eat chips…