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  • Facts about Sobbing

    Sobbing is never, ever attractive. It makes people uncomfortable. Sobbing induces other people’s sobbing. It makes the one who started the sobbing feel a little guilty, but not really. Sobbing is best suppressed after two minutes. One can continue to sob inwardly, but it’s best to be polite about it and shut up. Sobbing causes…

  • Stones

    Consider it written in stone. The stone at the head of a non-descript grave at a non-descript cemetery on the outskirts of some field in the middle of nowhere. Here she lies. This is how it will go. Tomorrow, there will be tears. Tomorrow, there will be a long, sad drive home and an even…

  • Go Quietly

    Neither of us will go quietly. That was obvious from the first. Her moans and denials and fight are only restrained by the liquid morphine that courses through her veins. She will not go quietly.   On the way to see her. On the way to see her for the last time. I did not…

  • Dying a Death

    The last words I’ll ever hear her speak are, “I’ve still got fight left in me.” Or maybe, “I don’t have no fight left in me.” I distinctly heard “fight left in me.” I asked her how she was.  Dry: “I’m great.” Floated back into her morphine dreams or nightmares. Later, when I was alone…

  • Something Worse than Weak

    I’m glad I got to see you Such sincerity She meant it Her eyes said she loved me Her eyes said she’d suffered Her eyes wouldn’t stop talking.   In pettiness, I find grief, not just for her. I know I’m something more than wrong, I’m something worse than weak. I don’t think she notices.…

  • Going

    Listen I’m tired of her I’m tired of hearing her I’m tired of seeing her   Since she’s on her way to good health or on her way to not-so-bad health   Her complaining and her refusals are symptoms of a petulant child I have no patience for   Since she’s going anyway I wish…

  • My Native Name Could Be “Whinging Weird Jaw”

    This rambling post and accompanying whinge is 762 words so I understand if you do not want to go through it all. I’ve underlined the important parts.   To answer Patrice’s question. I do not laugh on laughing gas. If left to my own devices, I get nice and high. My endodontist (sounds fancy but…

  • Wrongful Yelling

    I yelled at my brother because he wronged us, because he wronged me. My aunt is suffering through cancer treatment that will most likely result in her death, but the odds being what they are and her will to live being what it is, there’s no other option. I yelled at my brother because he…