Category: Reflection
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Disconnect
So he’ll be leaving soon when he’s been gone all along. For a flash of a second, someone turned the blaring overhead lights on when I had painstakingly taken measures to make sure the room was dim. Low lighting hides all flaws or at the very least, softens them. What’s seen in starkness…
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Time Change
My friend, Lamar, recently posted about living in the past and the future and trying to find balance in the now. It made me think. I only have brief moments of clarity in which I totally feel the now. For example, I live in the now when I realize this or that sucks. When I…
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Susceptibility
when the temperature is low is it cold for everyone else I’m susceptible to dehydration ant bites fainting light-headedness allergies hypochondria sadness dry skin picking men who are not good for me good humor plump lips squinty eyes being ensnared height jokes ageism ticking you
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Months Later, In Response
I remember what you said about falling in love before I knew what was happening. New loves without embodiment aside from my imagination. The most fulfilling part of dreaming is before you wake up. Let me sleep for a bit longer.
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Honest Not-Answer
He asked me, do you find comfort in your writing? Yes. No. Do the words rid me of shit or simply represent the shit? Yes. No. It’s not a yes/no question but true just the same.
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fuckball
It’s like learning any other new behavior or cognition. It’s the same as learning relaxation techniques or to challenge cognitive distortions. Anyone will tell you, these things take time, you’ll have setbacks, the thing is to keep at it. Okay, fine. So it’s hard to it when shit goes down because I feel as though…
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Guilt
…because at the end of the day, I connected two comments together and realized how horrifying disrespectful it is to one person and how it’s also sadly true for the other. My aunt lays in the hospital with major health issues, all of which are simple peasant girls surrounding Queen Cancer. She needs a higher…
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a small comfort
It helps to remember it’s a numbers game. Not the way my friend, Bryan, counts numbers, adds them together, until they equal something calming to his brain. Instead, one has to remember that statistically speaking, the odds are against you anyway. Writing is a skill. The more you do it, the better you become.…
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Notes
3:27 p.m. Note the time. It’s important. The only way to know for sure that this moment isn’t the last. The only proof we have that here is not there. Now is not then or when. Note the time. Even if there’s nothing left to say that hasn’t already been said. No new thoughts,…
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