I still picture it in my mind
Pretending to be surprised that I see him out someplace
Me and my new man
Me and my pretty face
Me and my rockin bod
Me actually looking happy
or even
Me actually happy

Seeing him
knowing he sees me
and the highlights he wanted me to get
the ones I refused
as a passive attack against him
He had no affection for me
I had no highlights for him
It doesn’t even out but comes close
Me and his embarrassment
Me and my revenge
Me and my dogged bitterness
Me and my delusions

as if he’s the one I’m getting back at
and not myself

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